The other side of Sunrise

rose-with-water-drops Why am I a sucker for sad/romantic films? I won’t even say what I watched this evening. I know these things are not real – that people do not find happiness together in such miraculous ways as depicted in Hollywood movies. Barriers do not suddenly fall away to be replaced by loving and doting (read ‘cloying’) happiness together. However I still watch these things. It is almost masochistic behaviour – watching two people suddenly find themselves and each other in ways that are so patently not real – or even more than vaguely possible.

I think I am stuck in that part of the film where everything is black – just before it miraculously starts to come right. Don’t they say that it is darkest before dawn? I think my life is in a sort of groundhog pre-dawn.

So now I am doing an equally bad thing and listening to the Schubert “Der Tod und das Mädchen” String Quartet. Such amazing music, with such an emotional message to it. I remember when I was younger, I used to listen to the Tchaikovsky ‘Pathétique’ Symphony. The Schubert is a chamber music form of the same kind of thing. It brings out the ‘ghosts” in my psyche – the ‘might have been’ people…

However life is not black. Exciting times performing lately (both in and out of New Zealand)and off examining in Hong Kong for nearly two months. One never knows. There could be exciting times…just the other side of sunrise  🙂


NB Both these photos were taken here – and they are not photoshopped   🙂 – apart from re-sizing to fit here and the reflective border added to the top photo by WordPress.

About David Adlam

I am a conductor, composer, clarinettist and examiner for Trinity Guildhall working in Auckland, New Zealand and overseas
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